It took a community of people from all over the world to help me transition into this new life. I sang “Gravity” by Sara Bareilles and I cried in my living room after packing boxes that would be transferred to my San Francisco studio that weekend. How would people now perceive me? Would I get labeled? How will I get through this time of my life alone, single, and without strong roots in a new city? These thoughts were so painful and scary, so I dealt with them in the best way I knew how…I sang. In-between sessions with my therapist, I had a lot of anxious thoughts. It was the end of a deep relationship, mourning for the loss of the plans I had for us, and also so scared for what’s to come.
As I accepted this reality in ending our marriage, I spent a lot of time singing with so much emotion and released tears of sadness. The next thing I knew, my world experienced a tornado and I was thrown into a reality that I never expected to happen: a separation and subsequent divorce. I had much to look forward to at that moment in time: my previous partner and I were building and designing a home for our future family, while I was really enjoying my new role at Google and settling into my Bay Area routine. I had just come from a retreat in Tulum feeling refreshed and ready to take on that next year of life. This time last year, I was starting to settle into my body and spirit as a woman.
#GO ON AND JUST ROLL WITH IT BABY FREE#
Through music, I’ve been able to go through the most challenging of moments and also feel alive and free in my most joyous moments.
Growing up, I used to have song lyrics taped to my desk, which until this day, my dad has kept in his garage so my kids could also grow up with knowing their mom in a relatable way. I’ve always had a special connection to music, the melody, the lyrics, and relating it to something going on in my life.
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